random free write. english 1a style.

My english teacher would make us write for 5, sometimes 10 minutes straight. we couldn't stop to think about what we were writing and editing wasn't important. the process of getting your mind onto the paper was more important that the actual writing procedure itself. she never wanted that pen or pencil to stop and she always wanted us to keep writing even if our thoughts turned to dogs or popcorn or whatever it is that leads our thoughts to new directions. This technique i have found to be very useful at bringing up things that are hiding just under the surface of what may be going on in our lives that we are not fully ready or aware of. I like to be able to ramble and sometimes it doesnt make sense to anyone but me, but thats all that matters. its a writing lesson for me. it was one of the best writing tools i gained from her class. i miss her a lot. she was such a wonderful teacher. She had kids around the same age as mine and we bonded in a good way. i hope she knows that i think about her from time to time. im sure when i have my baby ill send her an email and let her know how things are doing. im ready to have this baby already. i still have 29 more days until the c-section and im not sure if i can make it that long. my body is barely making it through today, let alone 29 more of them. i ikeep praying to god to help me out, make me see his vision for me. i know the baby needs to stay in there to be healthier, but c'mon. who are we kidding? Kids born at 36 weeks are full term and can survive without any problems. they would have more stuff go wrong with them with the stuff they were exposed to in utero as opposed to the 2 weeks early they left the womb. i dont know what im saying, but i do know this. im done being pregnant. right now, i am giving my body over to this baby completely and whole heartedly. i have resigned, stepped down from the position, and am taking a leave of absence. i will return as soon as the baby deems he is ready for the final transition. till then, i will lie here and wait. the end.