Disturbia.

Disturbia.
Current mood: angry

Sometime's I just don't understand men and they way they think. I spent years making mistake after mistake, man after man, only to realize they are all the same.

I've recently come in contact with someone from my past. A total innocent friendship was had, and now he's telling his girlfriend, MY BEST FRIENDS MOM, that he fucked me. Why would someone say that? How fucking white trash are we? It makes me SICK to think that someone would say that about me. I am NOT that person. I'm NOT a whore. I am not someone that can be USED anymore to MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER.

You want to know WHY I'm so fucked up and think the way I do??? BECAUSE LIFE HAS SHOWN ME NOTHING BUT DISTURBIA!!!!

TO ALL THE MEN OUT THERE: FUCK OFF!!!!!!!

I'm too fragile for this.

This makes me want to never wear make-up again. Never do my hair. Never take a shower. Never shave. Only wear clothes that are 3x too big for me. Never leave the house. Never talk to anyone.

You may think I'm being overdramatic and that is FINE. But this year has been the WORST FUCKING YEAR ever and I seriously CAN NOT take anymore. THIS is the straw and I AM THE CAMELS BACK.

SO THINK WHAT YOU WANT, DO WHAT YOU WILL. IM WRITING THIS BECAUSE ITS THE ONLY FUCKING THING THAT MAKES SENSE TO ME ANYMORE. WRITING IS THE ONE THING THAT NEVER HURT ME.

I am forever a pessimist and will no longer give a FUCK about what ANYONE thinks.